Chapter 24 – The One You Love

12-10-17_1-30-27 PMThe sun came through the window waking Ben. His arm was asleep, but when he saw Grace was still snuggled up against him in his arms, he didn’t care. This wasn’t the first time he had woken with Grace beside him, but it felt different. Last night, they had declared their love to each other. She was his and he was hers. All of him. And that was the best feeling he had ever had, but at the same time as scary as hell.

Love seemed so fragile. He figured that was why he held on to her all night. He was afraid if he let her go she might change her mind and he would wake up to an empty bed.

Grace stirred beside him. “Morning,” she said and he could hear the smile in her voice and he relaxed.

“Morning beautiful,” he said and kissed her neck. “I am ridiculously happy. How do you do that to me?”

12-10-17_1-39-51 PM“Mmmm. I am too,” she said and turned in his arms to face him. She smiled sweetly. “I think it’s called being in the arms of the one you love.”

12-10-17_1-38-23 PM“Don’t ever leave me. I couldn’t bear it,” said Ben, suddenly very serious.

Grace’s smile faded. “I wasn’t the one that left the first time,” she said, her voice so low he almost didn’t hear.

12-10-17_1-55-47 PM“Move in with me,” he said impulsively. He needed her to know he wouldn’t leave again, because he couldn’t leave. It was physically impossible for him to leave her now. “Please, because I don’t think I can stand to leave and go back to that apartment without you.”

Grace gave him a look like he was bat shit crazy. “With you and Nick? Not only no, but hell no.”

Ben was completely deflated. “Oh, I just thought…”

Grace put her hand on his mouth to stop him from talking and smiled sweetly. “Ben, you can move in here with me. I love Nick. He’s a really great guy, but I don’t want to live with the dude.”

12-10-17_1-49-02 PMBen sat up and pulled her into his arms.  “I love you Grace, but your place isn’t big enough for a baby.”

“And I’m not living with Nick.”

“I can’t just kick him out.”

“Are we having our first disagreement?” asked Grace grinning.

Ben laughed. “Oh. Maybe so. What should we do? Wait! I know! Nick can move in here and we can take the two bedroom. That way there will be room for the baby and we will have the privacy you want.”

12-10-17_1-35-39 PM“That’s brilliant! Problem solved! You think Nick will be upset he isn’t across the hall from Racheal?”

“She’ll probably wind up moving in with him. Then Casey can move in with Emma. Everybody wins! Anyway, they can figure it out. Why don’t you jump in the shower and let me make you breakfast. You need to eat before we leave.”

“You can’t cook!”

“Hey, I can make a mean bowl of cereal.”

Grace laughed. “Well, that’s about all I can stomach anyway. Are you excited about today?”

Ben snorted. “More like terrified.”

“Ben, I love you,” said Grace, “I’m so happy. It’s going to be okay isn’t it?”

12-10-17_1-53-25 PMBen kissed her. “Yes, it’s going to be perfect. And Grace, I love you too. Now that I finally said it, I want to keep saying it over and over.”

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12-11-17_8-32-34 PMAs they sat in the waiting room, Ben marveled at all the pregnant women. Most had family with them, including children. He felt bad that Emma had come with Grace the first time. It should have been him.

12-11-17_8-29-07 PMSeeing the children actually didn’t unnerve him. He had been around plenty of babies. It actually made him excited for his future. A future he never dreamed he would have.

12-11-17_8-04-49 PMHe whispered to Grace, “That’s going to be us in a few months. What do you want, girl or boy?”


12-11-17_8-47-18 PM“Yeah, me too,” he said and hugged her to him. “I love you,” he whispered into her ear.

12-11-17_8-53-56 PM“Grace Ramsay,” called the receptionist.

12-11-17_9-04-18 PM“That’s us. Come on Daddy,” said Grace as she pulled Ben off the bench.

Ramsay, he thought. No, her name should be Grace Murdock. The baby should be Murdock. Ben smiled to himself as he held fast to Grace’s hand and followed the receptionist into the exam room.

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Dr. McKinley came in and Grace introduced her to Ben.

12-11-17_9-59-30 PMGrace laid down on the exam table and the doctor squeezed the cold gel onto her exposed abdomen. She began to take measurements and examine the baby.

“Are you feeling any movement yet?” she asked.

“Yes. Ben even felt it last night,” she said grinning.

12-11-17_10-00-37 PM“That’s great. Listen, you can hear the little heartbeat.

Ben took Grace’s hand and squeezed it when he heard the swoosh swoosh of the baby’s heart beating.  He couldn’t keep the smile off his face.

Do you two want to know the sex?”

“Yes,” they both said in unison.

12-11-17_9-56-05 PMShe laughed. “Well you are having a little boy.  See – right there,” she said as she pointed out where to see his sex, “And he is very healthy and strong. Just the right size for 19 weeks. Congratulations, you are halfway there.”

12-11-17_10-01-52 PMA son. Ben’s heart was filled with love for the little image on the screen. Then he thought about his own father and got angry. How could he have done the things he did to his own flesh and blood. Ben knew he could never do anything so horrible, no matter how angry he was. He loved that little fuzzy blob with the swishy heart beat.

12-11-17_10-04-20 PMThe doctor got quiet and kept looking. Finally she said, “Okay, all done. I will print out a few pictures for you. Please meet me in my office. I need to discuss a few things with the two of you.”

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12-11-17_10-46-34 PMDr. McKinley came in and sat down. “So, the baby is growing well, and as I said, he is perfectly normal for 19 weeks. However, there were a few unexpected things that showed on the Ultrasound. I did consult with another Doc and he agreed with my assessment.

“Grace, you have a condition called Placenta Previa. It’s very rare, occurring in only about 1% of pregnancies. Essentially the placenta is covering your cervix. It is normally at the top of the uterus. This is what supplies blood to the baby. Usually, as your uterus grows to accommodate the baby, the placenta will shift away from your cervix and you will have a normal delivery. So I wouldn’t be overly concerned.”

12-11-17_11-09-20 PMBen began to panic and jumped up. “What if it doesn’t fix itself? Could she lose the baby? Is she at risk? What?!” he said getting louder with each word.

12-11-17_10-56-07 PM“Mr. – ummm,” she said as she consulted the paper, “Murdock, please calm down and have a seat. We will monitor your partner and make sure nothing happens to her or the baby.”

“But there are risks! You have to fix this!” said Ben still in full panic mode.

12-11-17_11-07-16 PM“Ben,” came Grace’s sweet voice, “Please, sit down and let her finish.”

He felt like a total jackass, Grace was trying to be calm and he was a maniac. He quickly sat down apologizing to her.

12-11-17_11-03-48 PM“So, as I was saying,” said Dr. McKinley, “90% of these cases fix themselves as the pregnancy progresses. We will do another ultrasound in 3 weeks to keep an eye on it.”

This time it was Grace that softly spoke up, “What happens if it doesn’t.” Ben squeezed her hand.

“We will monitor you closely for the remainder of your pregnancy. If you should experience any bleeding before your next exam, call us at once.”

“Intercourse?” asked Grace.

The doctor smiled, “Only if there is no bleeding.”

12-11-17_10-52-20 PM“But what happens if it doesn’t fix itself?” asked Ben again, trying his best to stay calm.

12-11-17_10-47-29 PMDr. McKinley took a deep breath and let it out. “It depends. I don’t want to scare you. But you should be prepared for the possibility of a c-section and even an early delivery in the event that you do begin to bleed.” The doctor handed Grace a pamphlet that talked about cesarean delivery and what to expect.

“Please, you two should go home and celebrate. Grace is carrying a very healthy little boy. It’s going to be okay. We will make an appointment for 3 weeks. But you call immediately if you have any bleeding or contractions.”12-11-17_11-15-43 PMBen got up walked over to Dr. McKinley and shook her hand. “I’m sorry for my outburst. Thank you for your help. I’ll take care of her.”

12-11-17_11-22-59 PMGrace was at his elbow so he turned and put his arm around her. “Thank you Dr. McKinley,” she said as the two of them walked out of her office.

12-12-17_8-42-52 PMBen led Grace to the checkout window. She was leaning into him for support. The news had obviously thrown her for a loop.

12-12-17_8-40-25 PMThe clerk took her paperwork and typed some information into the computer. “Miss Ramsay,” she said, “your insurance has a deductible that you haven’t yet met. Today’s appointment with the ultrasound will be $450.00.”

Ben quickly paid the bill against Grace’s protests. Damn, he thought, this is going to be expensive. But he didn’t care. He would do whatever it took to get her the care she needed. Grace and their child was worth every penny.

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33 thoughts on “Chapter 24 – The One You Love

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  2. Oh my goodness! I hope everything will be okay with the baby and Grace. I’m so glad Ben is there now by her side. I know he’s scared but hopefully, he will be more comfortable as time goes on and he sees she’s not going anywhere.

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    • Yes. I am glad he is there with her. I would hate for her to have had that news with Emma instead of Ben there for her. I do think he will eventually trust that she won’t leave him. That’s one of his biggest fears and the biggest obstacle to get him to let himself care. Grace asking him to move in with her helped.

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    • Maybe, maybe not…. We shall see if he can keep it together. I hope he does. He IS going to be a daddy for sure. 🙂 I mean. Gen 2 after only 20+ chapters! 🙂


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  4. I hope Grace and the baby end up fine.If it took this long to make Ben admit his feelings to Grace, I’m almost sure that if he loses her, he will need quiiiiiiite some time to ever let himself love someone again. Also hope he dosen’t continue afraid of her leaving him. He could start to get really paranoid because of that.

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    • Oh my. You bring up a good point about becoming paranoid. It was so hard for him to let her in and admit his feelings, he could become paranoid over time and very jealous. I hope that doesn’t happen and he becomes comfortable in their commitment to one another. If he lost her for any reason it would destroy him. So let’s hope that doesn’t happen either.

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  5. Okay I can’t help but laugh at the way Ben FLIPPED. He’s such a worrier. It’s actually very endearing. Hopefully all his worries are unfounded and everything will be okay with Grace and their little boy! ❤

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  6. Me: “aww, thass nice, baby boy… oh snap about the issue, but modern medicine ftw… HOLY CRAP $450??”

    /pets Canadian flag
    Bless your heart, socialized health care

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