Chapter 39 – Just You ‘N Me

01-09-18_7-32-22 PM.pngBen was exhausted. His little boy was four months old today and already had two tiny teeth. It had been three months since Leroy and a tearful Kaitlin left to go home leaving him to care for the baby, his baby, alone.

memAs they were leaving, his Mom hugged him for the first time since she had been at his apartment. Thankfully Leroy had pulled her away. He wasn’t ready for that now. The time had passed. He needed hugs a long time ago, hell, even the day before would have been better.

mem1Ben dutifully stuck out his hand towards Leroy, but the bigger man surprised him and pulled him into a quick hug and clapped him on the back. “Don’t be afraid to call us Ben. We are here for you. That’s what families are for,” he said as they walked out the door.

mem2After the door closed, Ben slid down the wall in relief. What he hadn’t expected was the sudden, all consuming sense of loss that washed through him when the door closed. He had never felt so alone in his entire life. His eyes flooded with tears that rolled uncontrolled down his face. He remained there until Cole’s cries reminded him he wasn’t alone.

mem4It had been harder than he ever realized it would be taking care of a baby by himself. Even though he loved the little boy more than anything in the world, it was overwhelming. Just when Cole had started sleeping all night, he began to cut his first teeth. He would wake up and cry inconsolably. A few times, Ben wound up crashing in the nursery with Cole, sleeping next to him in the bed. The older Cole got, the more attention he needed.

Cole’s cries pulled him back to the present. He welcomed the baby’s cries as it reminded him that he really wasn’t entirely alone. He had Cole.

ColeBen picked up the little boy and fed him. He played with him, delighting in the way the baby responded to him. He grinned, gurgled and giggled showing off the new teeth that had finally poked through his gums. These times were bittersweet. It hit him hard that Grace was gone, but also reminded him that his life still had a purpose. As did Lillie May – every Saturday when they went to see her – even when she talked about his ‘beautiful family’ and how lucky he was. And she didn’t mean Cole.

Ben put Cole in the crib and sat down to wait for Emma. She would be here any minute to stay with the baby while he made his delivery.  Emma, Nick and Rachael were the only ones that knew he was still growing.

The deliveries were easily keeping the bills paid and giving him the freedom to be with Cole full time. The hospital and funeral expenses were a thing of the past. Now he was trying to save enough to get into a new apartment or even a house. He needed to move badly. Everything about the apartment reminded him of Grace. Including the wedding pictures he didn’t have the heart to take down, yet had a hard time looking at.

01-09-18_9-44-52 PM A light tap tap sounded at the door and Emma walked in. “Hi! Where’s my little man?” she said looking around.

“He’s asleep. It was a rough night.”

Emma sat next to him on the couch. “His teeth?”

01-09-18_9-54-45 PM“Yes. I think another tooth is coming in.”

“You okay?”

“Yeah, just tired. If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t talk to anyone except the damn dealers and sweet Lillie May.”

Emma hugged Ben. That’s when he saw it. On her left hand. A ring. A diamond ring. A big ass diamond engagement ring. Anger surged through him. She couldn’t do this.

01-09-18_10-00-30 PM.pngBen grabbed her hand with the ring and shook it. “Emma, what in the hell is this? What the fuck are you thinking? Are you insane?” he growled out angrily.

01-09-18_9-52-30 PMEmma jerked her hand from Ben’s rubbing her wrist where he grabbed her. “God Ben, I was thinkin’ it would be ‘Congratulations Emma, when’s the big day?’ and instead you berate me?”

01-09-18_10-10-04 PMBen stood up he was so angry.  “Congratulations?! Are you fucking crazy?!” he yelled. Ben couldn’t think straight. All he knew was he was losing Emma and he needed her. Cole needed her. They both needed her. He couldn’t lose her too.

She turned around and walked towards the door. “You will never change,” she said, her eyes shimmering with tears, “I can’t do this anymore.”

01-09-18_10-16-41 PM“No…Emma!” he pleaded.

01-09-18_10-17-57 PM.pngThen she shocked him. She kept on walking without looking back. Through the door. Out of his life. Out of Cole’s life.

cole 2.pngThe sound of the slamming door, combined with his yelling, woke up Cole.

01-09-18_10-21-42 PM“Dammit!” said Ben to no one. He turned around and went to tend to his son, unable to deal with just happened.

01-09-18_10-39-16 PMBen picked up the baby and cuddled him. “Daddy’s sorry I woke you up. How are your gums little guy? Better now? Your Daddy was an ass and ran off Aunt Emma. She’s getting married to Casey. Now she’s gonna leave us. I guess it really is just you ‘n me kid.  So, Cole, buddy, looks like you ‘n me, we’re going on a field trip together.”

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57 thoughts on “Chapter 39 – Just You ‘N Me

  1. He really is an idiot! I’m sorry because I really am team Ben even though I am so hard on him. I know he has it in him to be a better person, since we saw it emerging with Grace. But that was really stupid of him and he will regret it more than he knows right now. If he is smart, he will tell her he is on high emotion right now and he was indeed acting like an idiot! Ben c’mon buddy!

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  3. I’m sure Emma can find a way to kill Casey so those two can get together again. Ben already has a foot in the drug world so I’m thinking full Breaking Bad-style killing with ricin. 😉

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  4. Way to go Bennie boy, way to go! You finally managed to piss Emma off, Emma of all people!
    Well, maybe she should have aknowledged the fact that Ben’s deeply hurting right now and not capable of thinking straight.
    And wait, is he *seriously* considering of taking baby Cole to the delivery? What the hell Ben?
    I fear that our boy is going through a downward spiral and it’s gonna be some time till he recovers. Let’s hope he’s not gonna crash too hard..!

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    • We will see the crash eventually. And yeah, Emma…Emma was you friend doofus…and she was well aware of why she was there. Probably not liking it and maybe she figured if she left he wouldn’t go because he wouldn’t have anyone to help him…I don’t think she expected him to take the baby. Maybe for him to come crawling back and apologize….but not Ben….he is so not thinking rationally.

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  5. Oh my god, Ben you absolute idiot. In more ways than one. Gahhhhhhh! He pushes Emma away like a total dick AND is gonna bring Cole with him to meet with scary drug dealers? Wow. Smart move there.

    Please smack him for me 😛

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    • Sad that we are back to wanting to smack Ben upside the head and knock some sense into him! But true. He is making some really bad emotional decisions which are not helping him. Stupid hot headed trait. 🙄

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  6. Uh…whoa Ben…that was out of the blue! I thought her bf hit her or something. He really doesn’t change, does he? Grace was the only one who could stabilize him. Sigh…

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    • It would make more sense if he had hit her right…no…he asked her to marry him! So he goes ballistic because he knows he won’t have the same access to her anymore. She is always there for him…maybe he will apologize..he needs to. Want tickets to the Ben slapping party?

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  7. I love your story as soon as I get enough points built up (and I figure out how to do it) I’ll be starting my third Sims Saga (I did one in Sims 2 called Times Marches On, and one in Sims 3 called Durwood) I think Ben needs kick in the head, I’l be glad to send my boy Ray Dean over to give him one (he’s a former secret agent turned politician) . I think a counselor is a good idea, I am afraid if anyone finds out about the pot he could lose Cole, he really needs to hurry up and get into a different line of work, or go where pot is legal. Newcrest perhaps?

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    • Thank you! I am so glad you have enjoyed the misadventures of Ben. Kick in the head? 😂 Going for more than a slap! A counselor would be an excellent idea. If he gets caught he may well lose Cole. Newcrest sounds like a good move. Hold that thought! Thanks for reading. 😀


  8. Get you stuff together, Ben…Getiing angry with everyone becaus they might leave you is what actually make’s they leave you…Also cold totally see a loner Ben that dosen’t belive in anyone else becase of his family iteractions and life in general.

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  9. I can understand his anger, but he needs to realize Emma can’t be the mommy for Cole, because she has her own life to focus on. He still feels something deep for Emma and he’d want her not to be happy because he is miserable. But she deserves happiness, too.

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  10. This is one of the things that I dont like about Ben and it does not make him a very sympathetic character. He is NOT considerate of others and is so self centered and hot headed. So Emma is finally getting a life and walking out on Ben due to his tantrum.
    It does not have to be a psychiatrist, it could be a clergy person, or even a good knowlegable friend he can voice is feelings and rage and rediredt his thoughts to productivity….Wonder if Sophia will turn him around? Or if he is going to suceed doing that himself?
    Thanks for the interesting turn of the storyline..

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    • It IS hard to be sympathetic to him when he behaves this way. I so understand that. He will need to begin to make better choices for you to want to continue to root for him. It will mostly have to be his choice but things will happen and he will rise to the occasion or not.


  11. Aww Emma! I was excited to see her for about two seconds before I saw Ben react to the ring… man, he’s really not the best at expressing himself without getting angry right off the bat. I feel like she should’ve given him some slack considering all he’s going through, but then again, it’s not like he has any right to want her to put her life on pause to help him. :/ I love seeing their friendship so I’m hoping this doesn’t cause a rift between them for too long…

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  13. Geez, Benny Boy, you really stuck your foot in it this time. I think maybe you pissed Emma off one time too many. This doesn’t look good for their friendship, not at all. I hope they can mend fences, but I don’t know. I think she hit her breaking point. Of course, Ben isn’t thinking straight either with everything that has been going on. He’s an emotional mess and people say and do things they normally wouldn’t during horrible times like that. I hope they can work this out.

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