Chapter 61 – Big Boy Pants

03-02-18_8-39-33 PM.pngBen decided the best way to break the news to Sofia was over dinner in a public place so she wouldn’t be able to escape.  It was probably the coward’s way out but maybe it would force them both to keep cool heads. She insisted they take Cole with them. He didn’t mind really. He didn’t get to spend near enough time with him anyway.

They sat down and settled Cole into a high chair with a half of sandwich while they waited on their orders.

02-25-18_8-16-59 PM.pngOnce he was busy eating, Sofia confronted Ben. “Okay. I know something is up. You have not been yourself all morning.”

02-25-18_8-24-31 PMBen’s smile faltered. She already knew him so well. He had been twice blessed, he just prayed this wasn’t going to be the end. They had been through so much already.  “I spoke to Nick this morning,” he said, trying to keep his tone light.

02-25-18_8-33-09 PM.png“Oh…” she said and her face fell, “He hasn’t called. It must have gone badly.”

She looked so sad. Ben took a breath wondering how to ease into it. “Well, it took some talking and explaining to make him understand that what we have is real.”

02-25-18_8-47-55 PM.png“So why hasn’t he called me?”

“Well….because.…” Ben hesitated. How can he tell her. He had no choice. Big boy pants.

Sofia cocked an eyebrow. “Well what?” she asked.

02-25-18_8-49-45 PM.pngBen closed his eyes for a moment gathering courage. “Well, he wasn’t convinced that you really love me. He thought you were rebounding and that I took advantage of you. So I tried to explain how we were attracted to each other before Jesse left you and that our shared experiences had brought us together….and I started tell-”

02-25-18_8-50-37 PMSofia cut him off mid-sentence, “You told him. You. Told. Him…. About Jesse.”  The last two words barely audible.

Ben closed his eyes and inhaled. “I didn’t exactly, he guessed.”

03-02-18_7-36-09 PM.pngSofia put her head in her hands trying to maintain control. “I just wanted it to be over. Now…I won’t even be able to look him in the eye. Things will never be the same  between us.”

Ben leaned back and spoke his next words softly. “Baby, he was concerned but I assured him you were okay.” He paused and let out a little laugh, “I told him I gave him a black eye and Leroy beat the holy hell out of him.”

“Howy heww,” said Cole.

02-25-18_8-55-26 PMThey both immediately looked at Cole, trying not to laugh. At the attention he gained from the adults, the little boy grinned and said it again, “Howy heww.” Then he burst into a fit of giggles.

“No Cole, that’s not nice,” said Sofia softly. The she turned to Ben shaking her head. “I swear he knows that’s a word he isn’t supposed to say.”

03-02-18_7-28-11 PM.pngBen said a silent thank you to Cole for easing the tension. “Maybe because it’s a new one?” Ben shook his head slowly. “I have no idea.”

03-02-18_7-32-32 PMHe hoped the love he had in his heart for Sofia was evident on his face as he brought the conversation back to where they left off. “Sweetheart, you don’t have to worry about Nick. Yes, he was upset, but he was better at the end of the call. I asked him to let me tell you, because I promised you I wouldn’t tell him. Pia, secrets are bad. If anyone should know that, it’s me. Sometimes the truth is harder, but in the long run, it’s worth it.”

Sofia seemed to be digesting his words as she looked down at the table and chewed her bottom lip.  Ben worried she might be trying to decide if she was going to tell him she was done with his ass and all of his baggage. Lord knows he had already messed up so much in the short amount of time they had actually been a real couple.

03-02-18_7-36-49 PM.pngShe finally looked up at him with a sad smile, her head in her hands. “I guess I should tell my parents. Put on my big girl panties and just do it.”

Ben couldn’t help the relieved laugh that rolled out him.

Sofia looked at him horrified.

03-02-18_7-38-31 PM.png“I’m sorry,” he said between laughs, “I just told Nick that I hated having to put on my big boy pants to tell you I fucked up.” He quickly clapped his hand over his mouth at the use of profanity.

02-25-18_8-56-04 PM.pngSure enough Cole parroted him, “Fruck, fruck,” said the little boy and squealed with delight at saying yet another new word.

“Coleman Ramsay Murdock!” said Sofia, this time trying to be stern, “That is not nice!”

02-25-18_8-57-04 PM.pngCole’s bottom lip started to quiver and he reached out to Ben. “Daddy….”

She immediately softened. “It’s okay baby. That’s a grown up word that little boys shouldn’t be saying.” Then she looked pointedly at Ben and added, “or Daddys.”

02-25-18_8-48-23 PM.pngThe memory of Grace testing out Cole’s name by scolding their unborn child washed over him while he watched Sofia scold Cole. Instead of making him sad, he was overcome with love for the woman sitting there with him now. “I love you so much Sofia,” he thought while he watched them interact.

03-02-18_7-39-46 PM.pngShe looked up at him surprised and smiled. “I’m scolding your son, almost making him cry, and you say you love me? And like that?”

Ben was embarrassed. “I didn’t know I said it out loud. I was watching you and thinking how lucky both of us are to have you in our lives.”

03-02-18_7-33-10 PM“Lucky that I’m here to discipline Cole for repeating after his father?” she asked.  “Yes. You are,” she said, answering her own question. Then her face softened and she smiled warmly at Cole. “Or else this gorgeous little guy would be spewing all kinds of naughty words in preschool.”

Ben relaxed. He was pretty sure this was going to end okay. “Oh, I asked your brother to stand up for me.”

Sofia’s eyes went wide. “And he agreed?”

03-02-18_8-09-05 PMBen chuckled. “Yeah, he did. You act surprised.”

“He wasn’t exactly singing your praises when I called him last week,” replied Sofia skeptically.

03-02-18_8-07-55 PM.pngBen smirked at her. “We kissed and made up.”

03-02-18_7-31-27 PMSofia shook her head violently. “No….no, no, no. Me or him…not sharing.”

Ben roared with laughter. “Okay, I may have exaggerated, there was no exchange of saliva, but we did get past our differences and made up. If we weren’t on the phone, there may have been some manly hugs. Nick’s a good man.”

03-02-18_7-40-21 PM.png“Yes,” agreed Sofia, the love she had for her brother clearly written all over her face, “he is.” Then she gave him a look that made his heart skip a beat. “But, Ben, so are you.”

“So you aren’t pis…mad at me?”

03-02-18_7-40-53 PM.pngSofia let out a soft sigh and the corners of her mouth slowly curved upwards telling him everything he needed to know. “No. It was bound to happen. I’m just glad you put on your big boy pants and told me. Maybe now it really will be over.”

03-02-18_7-34-37 PM.pngBen took Sofia’s hands in his. “I love you Pia. Let’s promise to always remember our big boy pants and big girl panties from now on. No more secrets. Deal?”

“Deal,” she replied with a smile.

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40 thoughts on “Chapter 61 – Big Boy Pants

    • Yes! I was so happy too! Adult conversations and facing hard truths. And Cole…he so stole the show…and soon the show will be his! Can’t wait. ❤️

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    • Yes! They are going to make it as a couple! ❤️❤️❤️ And Cole definitely stole the show on this one. Bless his heart! ❤️


    • He the best….I love him to pieces! I have my granddaughter here and she is his age right now and she is soooo much like that. She told me a big long story and I understood about 3 words. But it was so precious. I wanted to eat her up. ❤️❤️❤️

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      • I love it when they start talking with all the mispronounced words
        It’s the cutest thing 😭😭❤❤❤❤
        My younger cousins near that age spoke clearly for most words so it’s like I missed that part of their lives 😭

        But oh yes, I forgot to add I also liked that bit of Sofia not even doubting Ben for saying he and Nick kissed and made up 😂 oh Ben 😂

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  1. They complement each other so well. May we hope in a sibling for little Cole in the future? 🙂
    I like that we can compare what people they were at the beginning of this story when their paths separated and who they are now after they united.
    Aaaand I shipped them from the start! 🙂

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    • They do go together so well. ❤️ We will soon find out if Cole is getting more than a dog. I will confirm a dog. You and Pammie both shipped them! So funny. You had good company 😂

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  2. This was great!! ❤ I love seeing them like that! Sofia is such a gem and I'm so happy Ben knows that too ❤
    I laughed so hard when Cole cursed!! Lol!! I'm sure that a part of Ben was thinking "that's my boy!" lmao!! 😂 It seems that Cole wants a pair of those big boy pants for himself too 😁 ❤

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    • Haha! Attention was what Cole wanted for sure! Ben was probably secretly thinking that for sure. 😂😂😂 HE didn’t correct him. Ben knows he got lucky. Twice. ❤️

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  3. Thank goodness for Cole! LOLOL I’m so glad this little family is coming together so they can be happy. ❤ ❤ Pia is really good-hearted, and so is Ben.

    I always said that you never know the words you say until you hear your kids say them for the first time. haha

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    • That is soooo true. They parrot EVERYTHING at that age. Well and beyond – who are we kidding. I had my little 2 1/2 year old granddaughter this weekend and she is the same age as Cole in this story and she repeats everything. And then she tells you a long story and you have no idea what she says except those one or two words she just heard you say.

      I am very happy they are coming together. Pia is so very sweet. They work well together.

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  5. I think they are going to be such a cute family when they grow up. As Cole, for good or for bad, dosen’t remember his mother, surely he dosen’t have any ”trauma” on that aspect,it should be easy for him to call Sofia ”mom”. And they are good for each other, as they balance things out, both need to be helped, and that way one can help, and heal, one another, just like what a relationship is suppost to be.

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  6. Sofia is so stunning! And I loved Cole swearing OMG… that cracked me up! Seeing him and Sofia interact totally warmed my heart ❤ What a great mother she will be to him!

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  7. Whew so she is planning to tell her family. No more secrets.
    So are they going to live happily ever after?
    Am going to read on….Thanks again for a realistic story and wrapping up alot of the loose ends…

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  9. Yes, Cole, howy heww, your daddy knows a shocking multitude of bad words 😂 Pls tell him off for that when you’re at school but I fear he is already beyond the point of return lolol

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  10. Those adult sized underwear can be a bitch to put on and keep,wearing. But it was worth it in the end because everything came out in the open, which is where it belonged. Secrets lead to all kinds of tension, and that’s not good for a new couple starting out, or any couple, for that matter. But it worked out, and all is good.

    Cole was so damn cute! 😄😆 Yeah, you have to be careful what you say to those littles. Anything that goes into little ears often comes out little mouths. I wanted to pick him up though and squeeze him when he was about to cry, but Sofia figured out what to do.

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    • Secrets are bad. I’m happy they have none between them anymore. Cole is adorable. They are little parrots at that age. That little face just melts your heart. Sofia loves him so much that it’s just instinctive. ❤️

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