Chapter 2.69 – Fran

The next morning, Cole decided he would take the day off even though he had just gone back to work. He called to let his staff know.  Fixing things with his family was much more important right now. He and Avery needed to talk and he couldn’t bear to come home to her in the same state again.

He was sitting down with his coffee, going through ads for Nanny’s on his tablet when he heard the bedroom door open. He got up to go check on his wife.

He barely recognized her. It was obvious she had been crying and it crushed him.  He had no idea how to deal with her because he couldn’t understand why she was so miserable. He had hoped getting some uninterrupted sleep would help.

When she saw him standing there she burst into more tears. “I’m such a horrible mother,” she said through her tears, “The babies hate me, and you must hate me now too!”

He took her in his arms, but she stood stiffly, not yielding to him. “Shhh. It’s okay,” he said softly, “No one hates you. You’re just exhausted sweetheart.”

He released her since she wasn’t letting him hold her, although her tears had subsided. “C’mon, sit down. I have coffee made, and we need to talk before the babies wake up.”

Right on queue, Ryan started to cry.  They could already tell whose cry was whose. Cole wasn’t at all surprised it was Ryan since he was the fussier of the two. Avery started to get up. “No!” he snapped, “Stay, drink your coffee. I’ll be right back.”

He went and gathered up his infant son before he woke his sister. He changed and fed him before rejoining his wife in the kitchen.

“You are so good with them. How do you do it?” she said when he returned, “I feel useless.”

“Baby. You are just stressed out. I should never have assumed one person could handle two infants alone. I’m so sorry,” said Cole trying to soothe her and shoulder some of the blame.

“But you did! All night.” she said defensively.

“Avery, I called my parents as soon as you went to sleep,” explained Cole.

Avery was suddenly furious. “You called them? And I was was sleeping and not helping? How could you?  They probably hate me now too! Oh god!” She jumped up, ran into the bedroom and slammed the door, waking up both babies.

Cole was at a loss. They had never really fought before. Everything had always been so easy with them. And now, with the door slam, everyone was crying again. He went to pick up his phone when he heard the bedroom door open and saw Avery stoically walk out of the bedroom towards the stairs.

Cole sighed with relief as he put down the phone and followed her up the stairs to the nursery.

Thankfully, as soon as she picked up Reagan, the little girl instantly quieted. Cole picked up Ryan, who also calmed and was on the verge of sleep. “She loves her mother best,” whispered Cole. “I’m sorry I upset you Avery. We will figure this out together.”

She turned and looked at Cole…tears streaming down her face. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m not good at this, she said as she fed Reagan.

“Looks like you got it now sweetheart,” said Cole smiling trying to encourage her.

Avery looked at the little bundle in her arms as if it were an alien that might suddenly attack her. “She’s only quiet because you are here,” she grumbled.

Cole didn’t know what to say to make her feel better. “No. It’s because she’s in her mother’s arms,” he whispered, so as not to disturb the baby now asleep in his arms. “Let’s see if we can get them to stay in their crib for a few minutes. We still need to talk.”

“Yes,” agreed Avery quickly, “I need coffee.”

They laid the twins back in their cribs, and mercifully, they remained asleep.

Cole and Avery sat back down with their coffee. “I think we should get a Nanny. Preferably a live in,” he blurted out.

“So, you’ve already decided,” accused Avery, beginning to tear up again, “it’s because you don’t trust me isn’t it?  That’s why you didn’t go to work today.”

Cole was beginning to get upset. He felt like he was talking to Yasmine again, and it grated on his nerves.  “No Avery!” he said harsher than he intended, “It’s too much for you. Maybe Mom can help until we get a Nanny.”

“No! Sofia’s gonna think I’m horrid, probably already does,” said Avery and the tears started again.

“Avery, Mom’s worried about you. Me too. I’ve never seen you cry so much. If at all. When you see the doctor on Monday, you need to tell him how you feel.”

“You just don’t understand!” exclaimed Avery, “I had to carry those monsters around inside my body for 9 months, I threw up everyday for months, gained 75 pounds, which I still haven’t lost, I have stretch marks on my stomach and boobs and probably my ass too! I haven’t been able to sleep all night for at least 4 months! Plus, I’m a terrible mother. I don’t get what you think is so adorable about crying, spitting up and dirty diapers. I thought I was going to get one sweet little baby to cuddle, like Phil, and instead got two crying baby blobs! So, yes, Cole, I’m JUST a little stressed!”

After her rant, she burst into tears again and ran back into the bedroom. At least this time, she didn’t slam the door.

Cole followed her in. She couldn’t run away every time she was upset. He laid down on the bed next to her and rubbed her back while she got control of herself. “I’m sorry Avery,” he said gently, trying his best to keep his own emotions in check. He was shocked how badly she was dealing with everything. How could he be so ridiculously happy and his wife be so completely devastated? He was truly worried about her.

“You’re right sweetheart,” he continued, “I don’t know. But I do know, you can’t go on like you are. You’ll have a breakdown. We’ll hire a live-in Nanny and, as soon as we are sure they are going to work out, you can go back to work. In the mean time, you need to talk to the doctor about how you feel. He can maybe give you something to help you cope with your stress levels.”

“Okay…” she whispered, and turned over.  “Just hold me for a minute . . . please.”

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The doctor determined Avery did have severe postpartum depression and put her on anti-depressants. He also recommended therapy, which she adamantly refused, insisting she would be fine as soon as she got back to work.

The Nanny, along with the meds, seemed to help Avery begin to get back to normal.  She was taking care of herself and even going to the gym.

Fran, their new Nanny, was amazing and within a week, had the household running smoothly. She and the babies had taken to each other like flies to honey.

She also discovered, they were much happier when they were in the same crib. It was like a miracle, so they replaced the individual bassinets with one larger one and had happy babies.

Three weeks later, when the babies were 3 months old, Avery told Cole she was ready to get back to work.

He was secretly disappointed wishing she would have changed her mind.  But he knew staying at home all day made her anxious, even on her meds, so he easily agreed.

That night she let him know just how much better she was feeling, and in turn, made him very happy. It was the first time in over five months that they had been intimate. It seemed things were indeed turning around, and he was finally getting his wife, and his life, back.

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43 thoughts on “Chapter 2.69 – Fran

  1. Things seem to be getting better…But, Avery’s issues are deep. She needs a theraphyst.

    Everything surely isn’t ”fine” just because she already started working and taking medication…This whole ”they hate me!” way of thinking gives me Yasmine flashbacks…

    I’m worried they are going to think there’s not a problem anymore, and just roll with it until things finally reach a breaking point.

    Still worried that Avery might just wake up one day, look at her babies, and be like : ”This was a mistake…”

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    • Avery issues are much deeper than anyone realizes. She had a traumatic childhood and has probably has always felt a little unloved. Yes, very Yasmineish. I agree with your assessment that they may get into a tolerable routine, with her meds and the nanny taking the pressure off. But maybe… she will begin to bond with them and not think they were a mistake. 😳.

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    • I have it on good authority that she hooked up with some guy at the reunion! Lol… Yep, both women had similar baby issues and abandonment issues. Cole needs to find someone more grounded. Avery seemed grounded too, until the babies didn’t work out like she wanted. But she’s getting better. 🤷‍♀️

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  2. Just as I was thinking “wow, she kinda sounds like Yasmine”, so did Cole 😂 Also, perfect choice of manny name 😉 Hehe

    I’m worried about Avery :-/ It feels like things are already slipping out of control for her. I’m glad she talked to her doctor and got meds, but if things don’t get better she really needs to talk to a therapist… for her sake and the babies’ AND Cole’s! I hope they can get through this together 😦

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    • You aren’t the first one to see Yasmine flashbacks. And Fran must have come to me because it was buried deep in my brain. But this Fran is a grandmotherly sweet woman. Quite different although that might have been fun!

      Avery is losing control of her life and is desperately trying to get it back. Meds are mellowing her out and she totally feels that getting back to work, where she does have a LOT of control, will make things okay. She has Fran to deal with the ‘baby blobs’ and she can just come home and snuggle up with Cole. And all will be fine in the world. A bit of denial. Maybe as they become more communicative, she will begin to relate to them better.

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  3. Wow, Avery… What is with Cole and his ‘luck’ for ending up with girls like Avery or Yasmine? I feel like Avery’s the kind of a person who has her life all planned out. But life rarely goes according to the plan and such people are prone to end up disappointed. She experiences it as a fail when things don’t go as planned due to being a control freak…

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    • You have her figured out. Poor Cole. She seemed so ‘in control’ to him and stable. Little did he know how much of a control freak she is. Probably stems from her traumatic childhood. She wants to control every aspect of her life. And is very disappointed when things don’t go how she planned. Right now, she is feeling like she is getting herself back in control by getting back to work. And tons of women work and have a nanny or babysitter to care for their children and are very well adjusted. Hopefully Avery will find that balance.

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  4. Wow…Cole has a type: basket case. 😝🤣😂

    He’s a rescuer…and I’m glad the nanny is working out along with Avery taking the help. I have a feeling she’s going tp be a cold mother. Poor kids! At least they have their dad! 😭

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    • Poor Cole. Basket cases, the lot of them! He is indeed a rescuer. He tried so hard with Yasmine. I just don’t think he understands that Avery may need rescuing a little too. He tries to be patient but that patience may wear out soon. We will see next chapter what kind of mother she is. 😱. And they have the best Dad ever. ❤️

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    • Aww. Thanks. I fear Avery’s issues are deeper than PPD although that is certainly a big piece of her current state of mind. Probably why your not warming up. And therapy would be good for most of us no doubt! 😂😂😂.

      Cole loves his babies. And they are gorgeous!

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  6. Avery needs some therapy. I also noticed something with her. When she got mad about Cole calling in the cavalry her first response was how others saw her. I think she is a bit self centered. I think I got a bad feeling about her because she reminds me so much of my own mother, and that is not a good thing lol.

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    • She definitely needs therapy. She has always been self centered, it just didn’t show because she is a very private person – with lots of layers – as Noah figured out a long time ago. Sorry she reminds you of your own mother 😢

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  7. Btw..before I get waylaid for being unsympathetic, I do understand postpartum depression is a very real thing. Any kind of depression is difficult to deal with ( I deal with it all the time) but this one I can imagine (my sister went through it) is worse. First you are going through the depression caused by the hormonal reboot after going through the pregnancy and birth. Then you get even more depressed because you feel like you should be happy and you aren’t and you feel like a bad depression which catastrophes the situation even more. Kinda of a viscous cycle. I feel for what Avery is going through but I also have this unsettling vibe in the pit of my gut. Not sure why.

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    • I think a lot of women go through it to some extent, mostly just a temporary thing that lasts for just a week or so. It is a viscous cycle that can be extremely debilitating. But yes, there is more going on than just PPD. It just brought out the deeply buried insecurities and depression that she has dealt with her whole life. She should have gone to therapy but doesn’t want to admit she needs it.

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  8. Well at least things seem to be getting better for them! Fran seems like an excellent lady! But I agree with Jowita that Avery seems to have everything planned out and loses it the moment something goes differently from how she imagined… which is how life is, so I don’t expect her to keep her cool for long!
    She does need therapy and quickly – probably never gonna get it though, and I’m not sure how their marriage is going to hold up because of this..!

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  10. Fran! 😀 It would have been funny if this one would’ve been a slightly different kind of nanny though.

    I hope Avery will learn that just bc she doesn’t break out in excitement over her babie’s poo, that doesn’t make her a bad mother. Even if she doesn’t like it, she tries to take care of her babies at least.
    Going back to work might not solve her problem, but probably will give her the needed distance and distraction so she can calm down again and see everything from a different angle.
    Now only Cole needs to have the patience for that too.

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  11. I’m so glad they have the nanny now because it seems they were both on the road to crazy with Avery’s problems and Cole trying to placate it all. haha 😀 I’m also glad Avery was open with her doctor and she got help, although she probably does need therapy. But this is a start at least. I hope with the nanny, the meds and going back to work, Avery will start to feel like herself again.

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    • I am glad she did tell her doctor too. She was miserable and now getting back to work, she will feel better I’m sure. I do wish she would have agreed on therapy though. The nanny is awesome and does such a great job.

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  12. Ah, the name of the nanny! I didn’t catch that until I saw it in a comment, but it’s so perfect 😛
    Oh dear, trouble is brewing. Avery has not taken to motherhood. At all. And in true Cole fashion, he decides to just hope things will go back to normal if he sticks a band-aid on it. Oh Coley-woley, why…?

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  13. Uggh, Avery, Avery, Avery. Girl, you need to go see a therapist, and perhaps another man. Sorry, but I just can’t seem to force myself to like her. She called those cute little babies ‘monsters’ and ‘blobs’ awwwww. So sad. She doesn’t really seem like the loving, maternal type. I don’t see this going too well… but hey, she seems to have gotten more life into her after the therapy and nanny. Maybe things will turn around.

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    • She dis need help and therapy. She is not maternal. And having to care for two babies makes it even harder. Fran was a lifesaver. I had to laugh when you said get another man! 😂😂😂 Oh my! Hopefully things will get better now that she has help. 😊

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  14. Did this chapter inspire me to look up which antidepressants to give for post partum depression? Yes it did 😂 Thank you for the motivation
    I’m glad Avery agreed to tell the doctor. It would have been easier for her to go to therapy as well but that was already a step into the right direction. The nanny, too.

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