Chapter 3.11 – Never Forget

After Archer walked off, turning her world upside down, Reagan was too stunned to do anything except sit on the bench and cry.

When the bell rang, she knew there was no way she could go to class, so she went to the principal’s office.  She told Mrs. Johnson, the principals admin, that she was sick and needed to go home.

She looked at her a minute before asking, “Does it have anything to do with Archer Kendall?  I saw you two outside during lunch. You were crying when he left. He wasn’t happy either. Did you two have a fight?”

She sounded so genuinely concerned that Reagan blurted out, “He broke up with me.” Then she wished she could take it back because her lie was exposed.  She was sick. With a broken heart, but it made her sick at her stomach too, so that part was true.

“Have a seat, I’ll call you parents,” she said sweetly.

Reagan gratefully sat down while Mrs. Johnson looked up her contact information and began to dial.  It had only been three weeks since she, Ryan and Archer sat in the same chairs awaiting their punishment, but it seemed like forever. Reagan still had one week left of grounding, but then she and Archer could have been together somehow.  She would even have figured out a way to go to his party.  Now he didn’t even want her there.

Her stomach began to roll with her thoughts and she felt light headed.  She got up and ran to the restroom. Reagan vomited what little was on her stomach.

After she cleaned up, she went back to the principals office. Only a minute later, Dannie came in. Mrs. Johnson must have got her on the phone while she was in the bathroom.  The two women spoke in hushed tones before finally checking Reagan out of school.

On the short drive home Dannie asked, “Reagan? Are you okay? Do you have a fever? Mrs. Johnson said you got sick.”

“Just sick to my stomach,” mumbled Reagan and scrunched up in a ball away from her. No one spoke the remainder of the way home.

Reagan went straight to her room and sat on her bed, completely numb. Soon after, Dannie’s soft footfalls sounded on the stairs and sure enough, there was a knock on the door before she opened it. “Reagan, how are you feeling?”

“Fine. I think I’m better since I threw up,” she lied.

“I wanted to let you know that I made an appointment for you with the gynecologist,” she said gently, “We need to see if you are pregnant.” Dannie paused and sighed, “And if not, decide on an appropriate birth control method for someone your age.”

Reagan was mortified and scooted around on her bed. “I’m NOT pregnant!” She spit the words out.

Dannie sat next to Reagan and looked at her apologetically.  “Hun, we just need to be sure,” she said, her words soft and gentle.

“Did you make Taylor get on birth control or go to the doctor?” shot back Reagan.

Reagan!” scolded Dannie and made Reagan jump. Dannie never raised her voice. “I won’t dignify that with an answer.  And I won’t tell your father what you just said either, because I know you’re not really spiteful. Besides, he’s already devastated enough by this mess…”

Dannie paused and took a deep breath, her voice was once again calming when she spoke. “Look Reagan, I know you are hurting badly. And I suspect it’s more than just Archer. Although I am sure that is most of it right now. It goes all the way back to finding out you and Taylor are sisters….”

“Half sisters!” corrected Reagan through her tears.

Dannie shook her head and looked miserable. “Reagan. I only want to help. You can tell me anything. I’m not here to judge you. I’ve made my share of mistakes. I just want to be an ear to help you make sense of it all,” she said, her words gentle and soothing.

She felt and sounded so much like a mother to Reagan. And her heart broke even more.  She wanted her own mother, not Taylor’s. “There’s nothing anyone can do,” she finally choked out, “I just need to lie down. I don’t feel so good.”

Reagan turned away from Dannie as hot tears welled up again and laid back down on the bed.

Dannie reached over and put her hand on her hair and smoothed it down. “I’m here if you want to talk or need anything at all,” she said in a soft whisper, “and Reagan, I hope you believe me when I tell you that I love you and Ryan very much and it kills me to see you like this. I’m so sorry.”

Reagan almost leaned into her tender touch and let herself be soothed by her soft voice. But Dannie must have given up on her and removed her hand before she did.  Then Reagan felt the bed move as Dannie got up and left the room, quietly shutting the door behind her.

When the door closed, an overwhelming since of loss consumed her. She wrapped her arms around her body and began to rock back and forth as she sobbed until she fell asleep.

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A couple of hours later, Reagan woke to raised voices. It sounded like her father and Dannie were arguing. They never fought. And why was he home anyway?

She walked to the door and cracked it open to see if she could hear what they were saying.

“I did what needed to be done!” huffed Cole.

Dannie shot back, “He’s just an 18 year-old kid. You can’t threaten him! She’s completely devastated right now.  She’s upstairs physically sick, not to mention an emotional mess. Your little girl needs you and you are pushing her away with your authoritarian attitude. Grounded for a month! That’s a lifetime to a barely 15-year old.  And now this? Do you not see the life going out of her eyes?”

“Cole, quiet down. She’s going to wake up and hear you!”

“He said he thought she was 16,” he explained, his tone softer, “but when he found out she was 14, he didn’t back off. Then, he had the gall to blame me! He said if she was happy at home, then he wouldn’t have approached her. He said he loved her Dannie. He has no fucking idea what love is!”

“Baby,” said Dannie patiently, “he probably thinks he does. He obviously cares about her.  I remember you were once a very smitten 18 year-old who thought he was in love.”

“Why are you defending him? Whose side are you on?”

“Your daughter’s.” Dannie sounded frustrated. “Listen, to me Cole,” she said softly, “I hope I’m wrong, but she did get sick at school. It could just be nerves, and as upset is she is, I wouldn’t be surprised. I’ll get a pregnancy test so we can know for sure, but I went ahead and made that appointment for her to see the gynecologist. If she is sexually active, she needs birth control regardless. I’ll go with her.”

“Oh Dannie,” said her dad, then everything else was muffled.  Reagan heard a door close and she could no longer hear them.

If her father had anything to do with Archer breaking up with her, she would never forgive him. She wondered what he threatened Archer with to make him afraid enough to break up. He told her father he loved her.  And he certainly hadn’t raped her.   She would just have to tell them that.

Reagan texted Archer through her tears…she needed to know what her father said to him. But, of course, he didn’t text her back.  She knew, he had blocked her again.  Tomorrow, she would just have to find him at school.

Reagan heard her father coming up the stairs and quickly deleted her messages. She knew it was him because his steps were heavy and deliberate, while Dannie’s footfalls were soft and quiet. Taylor’s were quick and purposeful and Ryan’s were similar to their dad’s, except he always ran up the stairs, taking them two at a time.

She figured she was probably in more trouble for something. When he knocked on the door, she jumped. She knew she was a mess. “Reagan, can I come in?” he asked as he stuck his head in the door.

“Whatever,” she said and put her phone down.

He walked in and sat down next to her on the bed. His eyes were rimmed in red and he looked miserable. “Dannie called and said you came home sick. I was worried about you, so I left work early. How are you feeling?”

How could he act like nothing was wrong? she wondered.  “I have a stomach flu,” she lied and looked away. She knew it was really a broken heart and it was his fault. She wasn’t pregnant. She couldn’t be. Archer always used a condom. And she wasn’t late either, at least not yet. Maybe if she was pregnant, then she could be with Archer and get out of this house. She almost wished she was.

“I’m really sorry you feel bad,” he said gently, shaking her out of her thoughts, “Can I bring you something to eat? Does anything sound good?”

“No. I just want to lie back down,” she grumbled.

“How about some crackers or ice cream. I can get your favorite, Cherry Garcia.”

“I’m fine. I don’t want anything.” Cherry Garcia actually sounded good, but she wouldn’t give him the satisfaction.

Cole sighed. “Okay.  I’m really sorry baby…” He paused and swallowed hard before continuing. “That you’re sick,” he added, his voice thick with emotion.

Liar, she thought as she studied her hands, you’re only sorry because you think I’m pregnant. When the door closed, the tears came again and the knot in her stomach was back.  How did everything get so messed up?  she wondered.  When would she ever stop crying? She wished she could talk to her mother. Surely she would understand. She would never have sent Archer away.

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Later that evening, she heard Ryan come barreling up the stairs and he burst into her room. “Sis, are you okay?”

Reagan rolled her eyes.  “What do you want traitor? Out of all people, I thought I could trust you!”

Ryan ignored her. “Reagan, listen,” he said with urgency, “I need to tell you something. Dannie said you came home early because you were sick, so you must have missed it. Your dumbass boyfriend got into a fight with some other guy at school. He got fucking suspended, for the rest of the year.

NO! she screamed in her head. “What? Why?” she asked in a panic.

“It was over a girl.  I’m really sorry Rea. ” Ryan looked sad as he continued the story. “He was hitting on this dude’s girlfriend in the hallway and they got into an argument. Archer called him out and they took it outside.”

All kinds of confusing thoughts began to run through her mind. Another girl? That’s why he broke up? He likes someone else? Could it be that Enid’s right, that he got what he wanted and moved on? But, Dannie and Dad were arguing about Dad threatening Archer. Maybe that’s why he looked for someone else. It’s all Dad’s fault. But none of it matters anymoreI’ve lost Archer forever.

Ryan sat down next to her.  “I’m sorry Rea,” he said again, his voice pained. “I noticed you two weren’t at lunch together and I figured y’all skipped classes. I was worried about you. But then I saw him in the hall arguing with that other guy. Is it true then?  He broke up with you?”

“Yes. He broke up with me during lunch. He was pretty clear it was over. I guess now I know why.” She broke down and cried, she couldn’t hold it back anymore.

Ryan put his arm around her until her sobbing subsided. “If he was still at school,” said Ryan, “I’d beat the shit outta him for you.”

Reagan snorted out a laugh. “Like that worked so well last time,” she said as the corners of her mouth turned up slightly. She couldn’t stay mad at Ryan. “Thanks, but no thanks. But, can I ask a favor?”

“Anything, I figure I will be making this up to you for a long ass time,” he said.

“First, I’m starving. I can’t go downstairs, not yet. Would you bring me up something? Then, I need to tell you what I heard Daddy and Dannie talking about. And second, can I sit with you guys at lunch? For awhile anyway?”  She couldn’t face sitting alone. “I just…don’t have anyone else…” she could barely get the words out.

“Done. Darnell and Jason have abandoned us. They sit with Taylor and Kenzie now. So it’s just me and Camden.”

“He’s cute. Isn’t he dating someone?”

“No. He isn’t – and, well, at least he hasn’t been in Juvie.”

Reagan’s face fell. “You don’t understand. Archer did that for Enid. And I didn’t mean Camden was cute because I was interested. He is just always with someone, so I was surprised is all.”

“Forget Archer, Reagan. He’s bad news.”

Reagan sighed. “I’ll never forget him Ryan,” she said.

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48 thoughts on “Chapter 3.11 – Never Forget

  1. It’s definitely not pregnancy because Reagan 100% wouldn’t say no to some Ben and Jerry’s. 😉

    Archer’s a glutton for punishment and now Rea can’t even be his cool dominatrix. It’d be out of character but how the turntables would turn amirite

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  2. That’s definitely a calculated move by Archer, he was looking for a fight so he wouldn’t have to look at Reagan any more, he knows he would cave!

    Mondo Murdick must have some pretty juicy intel to warrant that kind of reaction! 😆

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  3. omg I had to laugh at Ryan this time.
    First he beats Archer because he is with his sister, then he wants to beat him up because Archer broke up with her…
    Kid should make up his mind.
    And also, stop meddling.

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  4. Oh for heaven’s sake, what a mess. But I understand the actions and reactions of all the involved, TBH. Now, I guess I was raised pretty liberal and don’t see the big deal with getting on birth control and all the other stuff. So what if she’s preggers. Not the first, not the last and you can still go places nowadays. Really hope she’s not, though. 😉
    The one and only gripe I have with all this is one of my biggest pet peeves IRL: MEDDLING. Argh. Everybody is in everyone’s business now. *shudder*

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    • Yes. Everyone is in everyone’s business. Ryan is at least trying to make it on her terms now. A little. But Cole. I hope he realizes he has crossed a line and a lot of this is indeed his fault. I’m glad Dannie plowed into him some more. Even if she did comfort him when he lost it. She can’t help it.

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      • Nah, I honestly understand Cole. I do. He loves his lil girl and wants to protect her. Idiotic way and he needs a spankin’ but I get it. Dannie’s in some rough spot, I have friends with patchwork families and know that I would not have the patience for such a pile of BS, admire anyone who does though. Poor thing.

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        • Yes. A patchwork family. That’s exactly what it is. I’ve never heard that term before. But it’s perfect. He does need a spankin’! And yes, it comes from a place of love….he should have probably reached out to his own parents or even his sister for advice. But kept it all internal.

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  5. I just wish Reagan would stand up more to her dad and brother after what they both did! (Especially now that she knows what Cole did 😱) I feel like neither Ryan nor Cole actually feels any kind of remorse for their actions. Like Reagan said, Cole was just being nice because he feared she’s pregnant (hmmm…. that’d be an interesting wrench to throw in things if she was 🤔). If he truly felt bad about the pain he caused his daughter with Archer thing, he would apologize and try to undo the damage he has done instead of just offering her ice cream 🙄

    At least Dannie seems to somewhat be on Reagan’s side, which she definitely needs! I just wish Dannie had said something sooner to Cole before he helped create this mess! And I wish Reagan would open up more to Dannie’s efforts too. 😦

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    • Cole gives up too fast with Reagan. If he would try harder to get her to open up without judging her, she might eventually at least yell at him and they could finally get their feelings out in the open and things would be a whole lot better. And actually I think Ryan and Cole both feel badly about their part in Reagan’s current state of mind.

      Gah….I do hope she isn’t pregnant! That would be a huge monkey wrench in the middle of this mess.

      Dannie is very much on Reagan’s side. She let Cole take the lead and now wishes she’d been much more assertive. But she had no idea he did what he did until he told her. He certainly knew his actions were a direct result in Archer breaking it off with Reagan. I hope that Dannie maybe got through to him and he realizes he has over done it.

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  6. It’s sad how all they care about is whether Reagan is pregnant. She’s in such a bad state right now and they still continuously tell her how it’s better because Archer’s bad news. Plain cruel. I wonder what Cole really did to Archer and what he threatened him with…

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    • I suspect filing rape charges…that would make him run, especially with his record. Bad move on both Ryan and Cole parts. And pregnancy is a concern….but not the end of the world by any means. They need to worry more about her current state of mind. But at least she and Ryan are talking again. She needs someone and she isn’t quite ready to let Dannie in. She still feels too much like the enemy, though she is trying and maybe she got through a little to Cole. I hope.

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  7. Glad Dannie told Cole off. He deserved it.
    There HAS to be a cute little Reagan/Archer baby. It is the only thing I want in my life right now…well that and olives, and pickles, and chocolate, and a ham sandwich.

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  8. I think Danni needs to get pregnant with triplets to make Cole busy and Ryan needs a new girlfriend or two at once to tire him out. It’s the only way for Reagan to get some breathing space and not be everyone’s business.
    I suppose ship Reagar is lost for good now.

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  9. I’m glad Dannie had that convo with Cole, but I almost wish she’d been harder on him. She’s on the right track, though. I want to rag on Cole so bad, but you already know how I feel about his “parenting.” lol I just feel sorry for Rea, and now, I feel sorry for Archer, too. He probably got suspended on purpose so he wouldn’t have to see her. What a mess.

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  10. Cole, Cole, Cole, he always jump in to the fire furnace. He never think before he speaks. Always jumping to the wrong conclusions. He needs to start listening before he loses both his twins. Put himself in their shoes. He is like the little kid sitting looking at the mountain and can only see the one side. He needs to travel around to the other side and look at it. He reminds me of a person that has never quite grow up enough to see others point of view. He is actually acting like a .child

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    • Great analogies! He does need to take a step back and look at the bigger picture. He is just reacting without thinking things through. And going behind Dannie’s back was wrong. She shoulda been pissed. I just hate she gave in when he crumbled. I think maybe – hopefully – he’s beginning to realize he messed up. But what’s he going to do about it?

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  11. I think someone needs to call Ben to take Cole out the back and beat some sense into Cole. Ben would understand these problem kids a bit better because…well he was one.
    As an older gentleman I understand the need to protect his daughter but I think Cole is doing it all wrong. I am glad Dannie stepped up and gave him he business. Although I am not sure it would do any good, Cole being the arrogant, self righteous man he he is. These kids really need some counseling.

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    • Yes…counseling, not punishment. And Cole is a bit self righteous isn’t he. He deserved more than what Dannie gave him…. Ben might be able to talk sense into him, if he would just go to him for advice. 🙄

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  12. Yeah, don’t ever forget Archer. He’s your man! #TeamArcherForever

    But I won’t mind Reagan playing with Camden until Archer and Reagan come to their senses. (And come of age to find each other again.)

    Eek! I hope she’s not pregnant. And I know there’s some explanation about what Archer was doing. Hitting on a girl? If he was, he was doing that out of anger. What a mess!

    I wanted to applaud Dannie for talking sense. She’s the only one acting like a responsible parent! I wish Reagan valued her. 😭

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    • Never forget Archer! ❤️ She and Camden might play…. Hopefully she isn’t pregnant! That would be a mess. Poor Archer needed away from her. He had been warned further fighting would mean a suspension. He knew what he was doing.

      Dannie! The only sensible one right now. I do wish she would embrace her. 😱

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  15. Oh man, Cole pisses me off more and more as chapters go by… he’s turned into a giant asshole, and I hope he wakes up from his dreams of eternal family bliss (without actually lifting a finger to achieve it)! Fortunately there’s Dannie there trying to inject some sense into him as well as being by Reagan’s side (even if she fails to acknowledge it)…
    But Reagan! What are you doing, wishing you were pregnant with Archer’s baby?!! I hope that’s not the case, because she’d sure as hell regret her wish!

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    • Cole….I’m glad Dannie is finally stepping up and inserting herself into this. He has single handedly managed to screw up his children. Well, so far Taylor and Connie are okay…😕. But the twins..they need love not a dictator. I do wish Reagan would embrace Dannie. She has convinced herself she is the enemy for so long that she can’t. At least not yet.
      And yes. Wishing she were pregnant is really immature. 😳

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  16. Oh, dear, this situation is BAD! I’m surprised Reagan didn’tyell at her father when she discovered the truth abou the threat. I guess iwth everything that’s going on, she hasn’t had time to process this feelings.

    Dannie is such a lovely person. She made a lot of good points when talking to Cole, so I hope that Reagan starts to trust *at least* Dannie. I mean, when she meets Avery, she’s going to realize her mother ain’t that ray of sunshine that got to jail because of her father.

    Cole finally lost it. Ugh. I can see where’ he’s coming from, but, still dude. He can’t blame all of Reagan’s problems on Archer. The fact that she got closer to Archer is just a consequence of her fragile mental state.

    And Archer…I bet her broke up with Reagan because of the threat. He surely is trying to overcome Reagan with some other girl, trying to ”replace” her as one might say, but I don’t think that’s gonna work.

    I’m not sure how things will develop now. Can Reagan even trust her father again? Some events on teen years can affect us until we’re older, so I wouldn’t be surprised if Reagan stopped talking with her Father because of this whole thing with Dannie + and the Archer deal.

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    • She is still trying to process everything for sure. She feels so lost. Dannie really is sweet and does care about the twins. I hope Reagan can begin to trust her. That would help her so much. Dannie is trying to show compassion. I hope when she meets Avery is does make her realize that she’s not, nor was she ever a good mother. Mostly because she’s a selfish person.

      Archer may have broken up with her for exactly that reason. He chased the other girl for a variety of reasons. 😈.

      Regan may have a very difficult time trusting Cole again. And that’s so sad. Cole loves them but he makes mistake after mistake with them. She barely speaks to.him now, she will very likely withdraw further. 😢😢

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  17. God, i frickin’ love Dannie so much! She is such a sweetheart and great mother figure to Reagan. Now that is a real mother! She is certainly a breeze of fresh air from that wicked virus, Avery! Btw, I hope Avery is getting hit with pillowcases full of soda cans! Mwahaha! Or maybe shoved in a porta-potty with duct tape strapping it shut. 😈😈😈 Ok, I’m just being silly but, yes. She is scum compared to my girl Dannie!

    Poor Reagan, I’m really hoping she gets over this hump. The first cut is always the deepest and it’s not gonna be easy.

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    • Dannie is trying so hard. ❤️ I’m glad she finally called Cole on his shit. Not sure what Avery would have done. But she’s not having to worry where she is. 😬

      I do hope she gets through this. She’s totally devastated right now. Hurting and confused. 💔

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  18. Goodness, Cole. If even Dannie is taking Rea’s side, please just think about it for ONCE! 😫
    I wonder if Archer got into the fight because of heartbreak alone or if he figured that there was no other way he could bear to stay away from Rea. You know, if he can’t see her at school because he isn’t there, it’ll be easier staying out of her way

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