Chapter 3.19 – Return from Paris

NSFW – Sexual Situations and partial nudity

There were only two days left until everyone returned from Paris and Reagan was feeling sadder than ever. Leaving that prison was one of the hardest things she had ever done. Then having to go straight to their grandparents house nearly did her in. Reagan had come so close to telling her grandmother the truth, and would have except she began to take her father’s side. She felt like she had no one to confide in.

Ryan had left for basketball practice with the team and she didn’t want to tag along. Conversely, she didn’t want to be alone, so she called Link. When he eagerly agreed to come see her, it made her smile.

Thirty minutes later the bell rang.  She let Link in and he greeted her with a hug and kiss. She already felt better.  “Do you want to go get ice cream or a coffee?” he asked when he released her.

He was being so sweet and Reagan couldn’t help but return his smile. “Not really. I kinda thought we could just hang out here and watch a movie.”

“Sure,” he agreed easily, “Any particular one?”

“Don’t know. Let’s go see what we can find.”

They settled on a horror movie and sat on the couch together. When Link put his arm around her, she gratefully snuggled into his embrace. This was exactly what she needed. She felt wanted and desired.

When a scary part came on she jumped and hid her head in Link’s chest. He laughed at her, so she playfully swatted him in retribution.

The swat turned into a tickling, wrestling match. They wound up on the floor with Link on top holding her hands over her head. “Give yet?” he asked grinning.

“Never!” she said and started wiggling to get away.

Reagan….” said Link, his voice a husky whisper, right before he kissed her.

Reagan let him kiss her and when he let his guard down she jumped up. “Ha! Now you gotta catch me!” she said, laughing at a stunned Link.

“You cheated! Now you will paaaaay!” he growled out in a low evil voice, as he got up to chase her.

She screamed and ran up the stairs, Link close behind. He caught up with her right before she made it to her bedroom door and grabbed her arm.

“Fine. You win! I give!” she said with urgency so he wouldn’t tickle her again.

Link eyed the door. “Is that your room? Can I look?”

“Um…I don’t know,” she stammered as she tried to think if there was anything embarrassing she didn’t want him to see.

“You have a secret shrine to me in there or something?” he asked with a salacious grin.

Reagan laughed. “No…it’s just … pink.”

“Let me see,” he said and reached around her pushed open the door. “OH MY GOD!” he screamed when he walked inside.

Reagan’s heart stopped. “What?”

He turned and looked at her laughing… “It’s a bedroom! With … a BED!”

“That’s not funny! You scared me!”

“Sorry…” he said pulling her backwards into her room and towards her bed. “Since I win, I want my prize.”  He plopped down onto her bed pulling her down on top of him.

He kissed her softly. “Mmmm. Nice prize,” he said.

“Maaaaybe…” she said as a challenge.

“Maybe? I’ll show you maybe!” He kissed her again and this time things quickly became heated. He began to lift her shirt and she pushed away from him. “What?” he asked, his frustration evident.

She didn’t know what her problem was. She had lost Camden when she refused him. Link was being sweet and funny, not pushy like Camden, plus she really liked him. Maybe they would stop before they actually went all the way.

When she didn’t answer, Link asked, “You okay?  Do you want me to stop?”

Do I? she wondered, and began to reason with herself. If they did, he might leave and she really needed him to stay. She was enjoying his company. He made her feel wanted. Finally, she said, “No,” and leaned in to kiss him again.

She could feel him relax as he let out a long breath. He sat up on his elbows, surprising her. “Reagan, I really do like you,” he confessed, “A lot.”

“Me too…” she replied.

He chuckled softly. “You like you too?”

She giggled. She knew he wanted her to say it. “I like you too. A lot.”

He kissed her again and it wasn’t long before they were both naked on her bed, and he was rolling on a condom. She caught her breath at what was getting ready to happen. She decided she wouldn’t deny him. She needed him.

Afterwards, as Link held her and she listened to his heart pounding in his chest, she worked hard not to cry. She had wanted Archer and she got Link. Link wasn’t as experienced as Archer, and he rushed things too much. It made her long for Archer’s touch and the feel of his large body on top of hers.

As Link stroked her hair, she felt guilty for thinking of Archer. Link was sweet and they had fun, but Archer made her feel worshiped. Link said he liked her, but Archer said he loved her, even told her father the same thing. She groaned for not being able to concentrate on the sweet guy whose heart was racing wildly next to her.

“That bad?” he asked with a little snort.

Crap…she had groaned out loud. “No…it was.. you were fine. I just remembered that my folks are coming home in two days.”

“Oh. So, just fine?” he asked and waggled his eyebrows, “maybe we need to practice more. Practice makes perfect, or so I’ve heard.”

She laughed softly at his quip, wondering if there would be a second time. “Ryan will be home shortly,” she said, “We should get up.”

“Yes. About that. Don’t tell Ryan. Okay?”

Stupid brother. “Ryan has promised to stay out of my business. No worries. I don’t go around telling him the intimate details of my dates anyway.”

After they got dressed, Link pulled her back down on the bed next to him. “Reagan. I know we’ve been hanging out together, but I want to be exclusive. I don’t want you to date anyone else, and I don’t want to either.”

“Oh…well…I…okay,” she stammered. She wasn’t sure, and he wanted a commitment.

“Try to tone down the excitement,” he said dryly, “I just thought after what just happened, you would feel better knowing that I don’t want to be with anyone else.”

Now she really felt terrible about thinking of Archer. “Noooo. Link, I guess I was just surprised is all. In my mind we already were already sort of exclusive. But…were you waiting for this?

“Of course not…but since we sorta took the next step, it just seemed like I needed to say it. To make it official. I’m sorry. I’m making this weird.”

God, was she really like her father? She grabbed Link’s hand. “It’s very sweet, not weird at all. Come on, let’s raid the freezer for ice cream before Ryan gets here and takes it all.”


Two days later……

The front door opened and Connie came running in ahead of the others, pulling her pink suitcase and babbling to Reagan about seeing the ‘Fiffel’ Tower.

“You mean Eiffel Tower,” corrected Reagan. She couldn’t help but smile at her enthusiasm.

“Yes! That’s what I said! Fiffel Tower! It was huge and we went inside of it!” She spread her arms out wide to illustrate.

Her father came in next pulling a suitcase. He put it down and went to hug Reagan. “How were things here? Where’s your brother?”

Reagan involuntarily stiffened in his embrace. “Everything okay?” he asked.

No. I got caught having a party, saw my mother in prison, almost told Grandma about it and then had sex with my boyfriend while thinking about another guy and told him we were exclusive.  Everything’s lovely, she thought but said, “Yes. Sorry. Everything’s fine. Ryan should be down. He’s upstairs.”

“I talked to my Mom on the way in from the airport. She said you and Ryan had dinner with them. I’m glad you guys went over to to visit.”

“Uh, we didn’t have a choice, but it was nice,” said Reagan while hoping her grandmother didn’t tell him about her talking about her mother.

“Ryan!” said Cole enthusiastically  when he came down the stairs, “How did practice and the games go? Any scouts?”

“It was good,” said Ryan, “There were some scouts and they talked to the coach about me.”

“That’s awesome. Would you mind helping Dannie and Taylor with the rest of the bags please?”

Reagan’s mouth dropped open as Ryan’s shoulders slumped slightly and he turned to do as he was asked without a word.  That’s it? thought Reagan. ‘That’s awesome?’  It had been freaking nerve wracking for him and her father didn’t even bother to ask what colleges the coaches were from. She was royally pissed.

Dannie and Taylor came in laughing and talking about the food in Paris. A knot formed in Reagan’s stomach watching them talking so animatedly with each other, when her own mother was locked up and she couldn’t even freely talk to her. She turned to leave the room before she said anything that got her in trouble.

“Reagan, come here,” said her father, “I want to talk to you about a few things.”

Reagan’s heart sank. Her grandmother must have told him. She reluctantly followed him into the study.  She hated that room with it’s stupid red furniture.

“I missed you,” said her father when they sat down,  “Mom said she thought maybe you missed everyone too. What did you guys do while we were gone?”

“Why? What did Grandma say?” she asked, her heart in her throat.

“Nothing. Just that you seemed upset. Did something happen?”

“No Dad. Nothing happened.”

“Reagan, something’s wrong. Why won’t you tell me what it is?”

Reagan knew her grandmother ratted her out and felt betrayed. She loved her grandparents and now, they were no longer on her side. “I want to see Mother,” she mumbled, afraid to say it loudly.

Her dad’s expression hardened and he closed his eyes for a minute before responding. When he finally looked at her he said simply, but firmly “No.”

Hot tears formed and Reagan got up to leave. She knew he would forbid it. Her mother was right.

“Reagan, don’t walk off from me,” he said in the same pained voice, “You don’t understand.”

She turned around to face him. “No I don’t!  So, can I see her?” she asked, the beginnings of hope blooming in her chest.

He shook his head slowly, his brow furrowed. “Reagan, I just can’t see anything good coming out of it. What do you expect to gain?”

“A relationship with my mother,” said Reagan as tears once again formed and threatened to fall.

“Why?’ asked Cole, his frustration evident, “She’s just the woman that gave birth to you. She doesn’t deserve to be called your mother. Dannie has been so much more of a mother to you and Ryan than she ever even pretended to be.”

Reagan was pissed. “I know she made mistakes. But so did you! What gives you the right to make your mistakes okay and hers a criminal offense!”

“Reagan…it’s complicated. It’s more than infidelity.”

“Says who?” challenged Reagan.

“Reagan…maybe we should see a counselor again,” suggested Cole, “This is obviously weighing on you.”

No! I want to see my mother, not some counselor!”

Cole let out a frustrated breath. “I can’t allow it. She’s not right baby. Besides, I’m sure she doesn’t want to see you. She’s never once asked to see either of you in all this time.”

“Because you took her rights away!”

“She did that herself Reagan, not me.”

“I don’t believe you,” shot back Reagan glaring at her father.

Her dad’s expression went from one of pained understanding to rage. “That’s enough! I would never, ever lie to you. I love and your brother and sisters with all of my being and would never do anything to hurt any of you. I just want to keep you safe.”

“I don’t need you to keep me safe! All you’ve done is hurt me!” exclaimed Reagan, her hurt rolling down her cheeks in wet streaks.

“I’m your father! I love you! I’m not the one that did this! Why is that so hard to believe?” Cole was now yelling back at her.

“So then why is it hard for you to believe my mother loves me too?!” she challenged.

“Because I know her!” he growled out through gritted teeth, “I know what she did and why! You don’t! She doesn’t love you – she only loves herself!” His disgust with her mother was evident in the way he spit out the last words.

“You’re wrong!!!” screamed Reagan and ran out of the room. She could hear her father calling out to her through his sobs and it almost made her want to turn around and go back to him. But she couldn’t. It wouldn’t change anything. He would just think he won, and still not let her go. Maybe this way, he’d change his mind. Maybe. But she knew, probably not.

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44 thoughts on “Chapter 3.19 – Return from Paris

  1. Link is so cute and seems like a nice guy. It’s a shame that Reagan is still comparing him to Archer 😦 I feel like he’s gonna be on some pedestal now and it’ll be impossible for any other guy to ever live up to it!

    And of course all the family drama is back full force now that their parents and sister are home 😱 I think Cole is really just digging a hole and making things worse for himself here. The problem is how quickly he loses his temper and starts getting hateful whenever Avery is mentioned. If he could keep his composure a little better and try to explain things more eloquently, I wonder whether Reagan would be more willing to listen? (Maybe not though haha) But either way, right now all he’s doing is pushing her even closer toward Avery… 😬😱

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    • Poor sweet Link. 😢 He really is a nice guy. And if Reagan hadn’t been all wrapped up in Archer first she may have it bad for him… Archer is sort of on a pedestal now. That’s gonna be tough for any other guy to compete with. But maybe, when she older….only two more teen chapters! 😀

      Cole needs to learn to control his temper that’s for sure. He can’t handle Avery convos at all. It was really a self fulling prophecy on Reagan’s part. He was going to say no and he validated all of her justifications for why Avery did what she did. He needs to sit down and tell her everything Avery did, but he hasn’t and never did. Cole doesn’t like drama yet he creates it by trying to bandaid everything.

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  2. Reagan is seeking validation again… Too bad.
    Honestly, Link acts like a typical guy. He really has no idea how to talk about his feelings; also all these lame jokes he makes! I have four male friends in real life and really, I know it soo well! Archer was so different, now that I think of him. He had the guts to confess his feelings to Reagan. But of course, he truly loved her, and Link… He just wants commitment, so that he’ll have someone to regularly sleep with. As sad as it is.
    And finally… Cole being a murdick again. I know Avery hurt him, but he isn’t even trying to imagine himself in Reagan’s shoes. As clueless as ever… And that was so bad when he wasn’t even interested in Ryan’s life. He’s only making it worse!

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    • Yes, Reagan is indeed seeking validation… it’s sad. Link is a typical guy. No kidding. Sweet and goofy. Archer was in love with her, no doubt. Your right about Link. He just wants to say they are a couple.

      Cole…yes, the Murdick came out in full force. He does need to put himself in Reagan’s shoes. And he should have Dannie there for these conversations. She is much more in tune to Reagan’s feelings and can rein in Cole when he starts acting like a Murdick.

      And poor Ryan…I feel so sorry for him. Cole should be there cheering him on…Ryan is not so unlike him. He worked super hard to get into Vet school so he would in only have to go four years. He should see the same drive in his son. But athletics probably isn’t something he put much stock in, more as pie in the sky. Although Ryan isn’t an honor student his grades are good.

      Next chapter a lot happens and the one after will be the end of teen hell! 😱

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    • True and true! Probably. Avery might be trying to manipulate them. Or maybe she really has seen how awful she was and wants to take advantage of them reaching out to try and repair the damage she did. 🤷‍♀️ Cole’s temper gets the best of him every time her name is mentioned.


  3. Eh these people 😔… I’m just waiting for Rea to drop frog eyes now and Reacher to happen.
    With extra grilled cheese.
    Oh, I wouldn’t mind if Cole finds out that she visited her mom, tho 😀

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  4. Reagan is a hot mess and Cole is being an idiot. What else is new, lol. 😛 If Cole had any clue about how to handle an emotional teenager, he would have taken her to see Avery right away. Forbidding your teen from doing something is the number 1 way to guarantee they’re going to do it in secret and possibly get themselves hurt doing it. So I once again hand the Worst Dad Ever award to Coley. Honestly? Maybe if Reagan wasn’t irrationally angry at Dannie, she could have asked her to reason with him.

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    • Reagan is a hot mess and Cole continues to hold true to form…and now, Avery is forbidden fruit. And of course that makes her even more of something they want! And the irrational shunning of Dannie makes it worse. Because Dannie could probably help a lot!

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  5. Went a lot better than I expected. Link is cute and sweet, but I just cannot ship him and Rea. I am with Cole on the Prison Mama thing. People never change like that. She did not want kids then, and prison is not the place to awaken maternal instincts.

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    • Cole knows her and the kids don’t. It’s hard. My thought is that during therapy when she was taken away, they tried to make sure the kids knew that it wasn’t their fault Avery was gone and maybe even told them she loved them. They were so young and impressionable when she went to prison. So there is no reason for Reagan to think she is evil. More like her and her Cole just didn’t get along and she did some bad things as a result. So it’s easy to blame her father for all the awful things she did.

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  6. AHHHH.
    I understand where everyone is coming from here, butt damn.
    Angry at the Murdick again, rawl. MANY REASONS.
    Link, ew, no.

    Everything is just getting worse 😭 I guess it has to, though, before it can get better.
    Mannn… Cole finding out… omg.
    I do wish Reagan had someone she could trust to confide in, poor girl.
    What a mess /clutches Reacher and grilled cheese and rocks back and forth

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    • Link is a distraction at best for Reagan. Poor guy gonna get hurt – probably.

      And Cole….he just loses his cool too quickly especially when it comes to Avery. Everything does seem to escalating especially after all the validation Cole provided. Grrr….

      It would be nice if Reagan had someone she could talk to. It would certainly help. As it is Cole just keeps pushing her closer and closer to Avery. I bet Reagan might like a Reacher sandwich! Lol…

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  7. This dysfunctional family needs therapy. Avery did a number on Cole. Oh yes, she knew exactly what she was doing by “acting” like she cared and that mean old Cole took her sweet babies away from her. Can I do a huge eyeroll? And now look at the mess she’s created.

    Cole, otoh, is so bitter that he can’t see straight. What’s the harm in allowing Reagan and Ryan access to Avery? Yes, maybe she’d manipulate and hurt them but they’re almost grown up. It’s time to let them fly the nest. I get why he’d want to protect them but that time is almost over. They’ll see Avery for who she is in time. In fact, allowing the relationship will prove that he was correct all along. Avery cannot think of anyone but herself. She won’t be able to fake it for long.

    I think it’s so sad that Reagan gets her validation from guys. It exactly what happens when a girl doesn’t have a good relationship with her father–she seeks it elsewhere. That love scene with Link was so cringeworthy and awkward. I felt for the guy. 😢

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    • Do need therapy badly and Cole even suggested it, but Reagan threw it back in his face. Avery has her convinced everything was Cole’s fault without even saying it. Reagan fills in the missing pieces how it works for her.

      Cole is soooo bitter. He may have no choice but to let them visit her. He’s certainly between and rock and a hard place right now. Which he caused….sadly.

      We shall see how things progress. He said no which is what Reagan fully expected him to say. If he’s said yes, things might have opened up for improving the relationship between him and the twins… he just confirmed in Reagan’s mind he is a Murdick.

      The sex scene was very cringeworthy! Poor Link and Reagan both. Should have never happened, but you’re right, she craves that closeness and is afraid to lose him if she refused him. She totally isn’t into him like that. So sad.

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  8. I feel you, Rea. It’s hard to get used to driving a Toyota when you used to drive a Porsche. 😏
    Demon daddy Cole in his hellish red room did it again. Failed to listen, really listen to his daugther. The fact that he won’t let her to visit Avery only proves his own insecurities and lack of trust in Rea’s ability to tell a truth from a lie. He’s actually preventing her growth, as she needs to make mistakes and learn from them. This is not the right way to protect your child. He needs to let her get burned and be there for her after. Not letting her near the fire won’t accomplish anything.

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    • Ohhhh. Archer Porsche and Link Toyota. Archer has ruined her for all future relationships! Sigh. Once you fly first class you can’t appreciate coach….🤷‍♀️

      He did look like a Demon in that red room. Maybe that’s why Reagan hates it so much! He totally should have agreed to let her see Avery. It would have shown he trusted her and now she totally believes everything Avery says. Yes…he should let her get burned and then help her, not try to wrap her in asbestos bubble wrap. He is smothering her. 😢. Maybe Ben can talk some sense into him…sadly it may be too late.

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  9. You know for me Cole became more and more unlikable as his Gen went on, his self Righteousness and rose colored view of the world, not to mention all the shit he caused with my boy Mickey (I know he is on your shit list now) Then he got with Dannie and I began to like him a bit more again, but since Gen 3 has started he has gotten deeper into a hole and become an even more unattractive character (as far as to know him, you are writing him fantastic) He needs to lighten the hell up. I understand his fears, but he is just pushing his kids further away, and it’s just going to get worse. I think Dannie needs to talk some sense into him, or maybe Ben.

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  10. I feel like this mess could be avoided if they both went to see Avery. I get that Avery has likely realized that she might have been wrong to do what she did but I do believe Cole is doing what he thinks is right. I hope this doesn’t ruin their relationship. And I am upset that Cole just kind of brushed off Ryan’s accomplishments. That was definitely a wrong move especially with how rocky their relationship has been.

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    • Yes! If he would have agreed and taken her, things might actually get a lot better. Cole was so worried about Reagan, he dismissed Ryan. Ryan isn’t the drama queen… it’s a sad situation all the way around.


    • Poor Cole….he is lost in teen angst…and so are the twins… he never expected his life to turn out like it did with Avery. Then Dannie came along and everything was good for awhile….until…well he lied to them for years. Oops. And now, she’s back.

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  11. Wow, so the family is back together and somehow everything is even worse… they all desperately need to get it together like, yesterday!!
    Cole especially got on my nerves in this chapter; not because of the yelling, but because of his indifference towards his son’s success. What a jerk. Would some more enthusiasm hurt so badly, Murdick? (I love that catchy nn!)
    And oh Reagan… you miss Archer, don’t you? I get it girl, I do too..! ❤ Poor Link arrived a bit too late… or maybe too early? Maybe he's nothing more than a rebound (since Camden never actually took that role)!

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    • Reagan totally misses Archer. So far he is the only one that treated her with respect and like he genuinely cared about her well being. Link is a total rebound and cant possibly live up to those expectations. He definitely appeared on the scene too late. If he’d been pre-Archer, things might have been a lot easier between them. Camden was too much of a jerk, and at least Reagan had enough self-confidence left to say no. He shouldn’t of insulted her by insulting Archer. Bad move dude.

      And Cole totally blew off Ryan’s success. He asked, wasn’t that enough? 🙄 He was more concerned about finding out why Reagan was upset at his parent’s house. I wish he wouldn’t have knee jerked and said No to Reagan when she asked to see her mom. If he’d said yes, think about how many Daddy points he would have earned! As it stands now, he’s so far in the whole he might never dig out his Murdicky self. 😱

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  14. Link seems like a solid dude. I think that, unless Reagan continues to think about her ex, they could be a thing. Not saying that it’s easy, I bet Reagan is going to be thinking about Archer for a loooong period of time before she finally moves on. He had alot of impact in her life.

    Up until now, I could see how Cole had *Some* kind of idea that he was a good father, but now, I just don’t get it. I mean, you fight and fight with your kids constantly, went on a trip without them knowing they’re resentful of their new family situation, and didn’t even ask more infor about Ryan’s life. He’s making lots and lots of mistakes, and I kinda see why the twins think of him as some kind of bad person.

    I really hoped Reagan would just say everything that was on her mind to her father, maybe knowing how much she, and Ryan, are being hurt by this whole situation could change their behavior.

    I get why cole doesn’t trust Avery. He trusted her right to the bitter end, and was betrayed. He ain’t gonna forgive her that easily, and he still thinks she’s someone willing to sacrifice others for personal gain. He could explain all *this* to his daughter, but noooo, he had to go with ”Because I’m your father”–speech. *Rolls eyes*

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    • Link is sweet, but right now he’s after one thing….sort of. And Reagan isn’t as into to it as he is, because of Archer. Yes…you are right, Archer will remain a huge influence on her for a long time.

      And ugh… he is so clueless. He thought everything was all good and then gets into a huge argument with his daughter and hurts his sons feelings. Not good.

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    • Sorry. Accidentally hit reply! So yes…if Reagan would say everything, maybe he might open his eyes, but when Avery is mentioned he shuts down. He will never trust her. He had a hard time trusting Dannie….and they have been friends for years. He should tell her every bad thing that happened. She doesn’t know the whole story. Only what Avery has told her.

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  15. Cole is killing me, Audrey! Kill-ing-me!!! LOL Like, dude, calm down and for once, listen to your kid. I feel like she’s turning to boys now for validation and I’m so saddened by that. I can’t even speak right now. Moving on to the next chapter.

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  16. I can’t blame Cole for thinking that Avery doesn’t love her children and it would just hurt them to find that out. That’s the image she has been given him for many years. However, as mentioned in an earlier chapter, I thought he would handle the request better. Calmer. More reasonable. Granted, Rea’s fast indignation doesn’t exactly help either 😬 Two peas in a pot, either one too stubborn to give way

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    • As awful as Cole sounds he does love them and is trying to protect them. He knew something was on her mind but wasn’t prepared to let her see Avery. He was trying but those two don’t mix right now. Ugh.


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